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I CARRY THE WEIGHT



© 2022 Marlou Fernanda
Performance and Edit by Marlou Fernanda
As Part of The "On Collective Care and Togetherness" Exhibition at MAMA Rotterdam (2020)





“An Echo of The Past. After my intimate live performance at MAMA Rotterdam I felt the need to take this concept into the streets. I had to express it one more time. After this live performance at Damsquare an older woman came to talk to me to tell me that I made her believe I was a refugee, in need of help. It made her question how to respond to me. Another man that wanted to help me in the moment told me afterwards that he has felt the same in the past, so it was only right for him to offer me a helping hand. The police also wanted to step in.

All this made me aware of the fact that I constantly repeat that I have to do everything on my own, and not once am I asking for help. Yet by screaming was I finally heard. This table symbolizes the constant heaviness on my chest that I decided to carry on my own. It’s a mindset that let’s you drown in loneliness even when you’re surrounded by people.

If you feel what I’m talking about, let’s try to get out of this mindset. Slowly but surely, together.

With Love.”



GENERATIONAL ANGER



© 2022 Marlou Fernanda




“I was once questioned why I feel the desire to bring a change in this world. It’s unreachable, for someone like me, is what was said. Well... that might be true. I might be a nobody and this performance might not do anything at all. Possibly true. But, I’ve had a vision and in my ability, I’ll continue to try and contribute to the bigger picture that will eventually lead to the change.




I’m manifesting that with each stone that’s being broken, the cycle of Racism, Racial Injustice and Police Brutality will be broken and so will the continuous hurt, pain and damage that these words bring, and have brought, for generations long.

We break cycles to release breakthrough, healing and blessings upon our lives and the lives of our children and their children. This doesn’t erase the history.

This is Generational Anger. This is how I’ll end 2020. In Power.

With Love.”